Best friend

Best Friend

by: Leiah Roberson

You said you loved me

but than you left me alone

I wondered why I wasn't good enough

but the reason was still unknown 

I cried every night

thinking of what went wrong

But I tried and I tried

to just keep being strong

I told you I would be there

Forever until the end

But Maybe you just think 

That's she's a better friend! 

I'm not gonna give up

Nor love you no less

Cause what Friend would I be,

If I just lost hope and left

So I'm just gonna wait

For my best friend to come back

Cause I know that right now, 

you're the victim of one of satin's attacks 

Who you are now, 

Isn't who you were then

Cause back then you said you loved me

time and time again

Did you even mean it?

All the words that you said

Or were you just using me 

like all my other " Friends "

I thought you'd be different 

I thought you wouldn't leave

But then I got that email

that I just couldn't believe 

The words that you wrote me

They literally hurt my ears 

you see, everything that you told me

I just didn't want to hear

I've heard it all before

3 times to be exact

And that all the walls I had up

There sadly coming back

One year, Five years,

A Decade or two

Best Friend, please come back

Because I really need you

I'm hurt and I'm scarred 

But I'm ready to forgive 

you'll always be my best friend

and I'll love you as long as I live :) 

Being a Follower.

Geez... it's been a while since i have blogged! I am determined to keep up with this blog! Even though Like nobody reads it... :) Hopefully you are reading this because you read the title and want to know more :) Just recently, I started reading a book! It was 3 Bucks so I decided to buy it on my kindle! The title of this book sorta caught my eye! " Not a Fan: Becoming a completely committed follower of Jesus. " How can you be a follower but not a fan? or how is a fan and a follower different? It really made it clear in the book! You see, I though I was  indeed a passionate, fully devoted follower of Jesus. I always was at church! I read my bible, I prayed! Shoot, I even just had gotten back from Africa when I read this... But am I sometimes just a fan who admires Jesus but isn't ready to let him ruin my life? am I willing to say " okay God, here's my life... do what YOU want, Let YOUR will be done, Not mine! " Or am I so used to giving God the hand and saying " Okay God, I know that you want me to do this... but that's not really what I want right now. " Or " God, I would love to... but I kinda got a lot going on " Cause I know I say that a lot to God! You see the difference between a fan and a follower is a fan knows God! they may read there bible and go to church, and shout Amen every now and then... but when it comes down to being a true devoted disciple, they sorta step back and say... nahh I'll pass! You see, they know God, but they don't wanna put God First in their life! A follower, is what we are called to be! A follower not only knows God, and has a personal relationship with God! But they are ready to lay everything down, to be a disciple of God! That story in the bible where 3 men want to follow Jesus and be his disciple, but each of them have something they wanted to do before they went to follow Jesus! They had... EXCUSES! So Jesus told them, a true follower will lay down everything to follow me! Would you do that? would you lay down you money, your job, your friends, your family, your life just to be a disciple of Jesus? a Follower? Ask yourself the same Question I now ask myself daily " Am I just being God's #1 Fan, or am I willing to become his #1 Follower? "